yen’s Blog

Well, kalo ngebaca judulnya jangan mikir ini s’thing yg berhub ma gw.Ini totally judul pelem.Critanya kemaren kan jalan coz suntuk skalian nyari titipan nyokap gw buat dipaketin kerumah.Trus, iseng2 ngajak tmen skosan gw buat nonton.Akhirnya kita mampir ke Ciwalk.Liat2 pelem yg gi diputer,alhasil jatuhlah pilihan antara Angels&Demons ato Drag Me To Hell.Berhubung bener2 ga minat buat nonton A&D, alhasil nonton DMTH deh…

Nah…

kan beli cemilan tuh, gw beli takoyaki ma minum.Mikirnya takut ada yang aneh2 pas di tengah2 pelem, gw makanlah ntu tako pas di awal2.Ternyata gila…dari awal dah ada yang aneh2!! Untung ga keluar lagi aja ntu tako dari perut gw >.

Today, “certain someone” handed me an mp3, a korean song. He said that it was his feeling towards me. And then I heard the song.Here is the translation for the lyrics

“Only as a dongsaeng, just that much you think I’m adorable
but noona you are woman to me.
You say “what do you know?” “you’ll understand when you’re older”
you say that I’m acting rashly but noona you re a woman to me.
No matter who you meet or whoever you meet and no matter what you do,
I can only wait.

Because noona is woman, because you are my woman.

I’ll call you by you, no matter what you say.
So that you can feel me as a man, I’ll hold you tightly.
I’ll call you by you. No matter what you say, I don’t care.
Don’t be surprised.
If you really look, you are a young girl.

Where have you gone? Where do you hurt?
You look sad. Noona, it doesn’t suit you.
When I ask you “has something happen?”
“what happened”, you just tousle my hair.
If someone makes noona cry,
whoever that might be I’m not going to stand it.

Because noona is my woman, because you are my woman.

I’ll call you by you, no matter what you say.
So that you can forget your sadness, I’ll hold you tightly.
I’ll call you by you. No matter what you say, I don’t care.
Be in my embrace.
If you really look, you are a young girl.

Because I like you I must be doing this.
I know that this isn’t right.
Because I like you.. Because I like you..
Because noona is my woman, because you are my woman.
Because you drive me insane.

Don’t be sorry, because I’m happy.
Even if I look at you, I shed tears.
I’ll call you by you. No matter what you say, I don’t care.
Just be my side.

In the end I’m telling you you are my woman. ”

Note. Dongsaeng refers to junior, someone younger, and noona refers to older woman, usually said by younger man.

Then he asked for my answer and i’m a bit confused in here. because i do saw him as what was written in that song, as my dongsaeng (if i’ve ever told you about him, you do sure know who this guy is)

And if that’s so, what should i answer him then?

Meanwhile i’m not so good with giving an explanation…Very bad…

Hh…

Why must you see me as a woman, not your senior???

On top of that, the song is great~ ^^

Knapa tiba2 bikin posting begini??

Hm…gini niyh critanya..’t

An old friend of mine…wait…can i say that he’s an old friend?? since i don’t remember any interaction between us before…no offence…

ok…he called me suddenly, things that he never did b4.since i’m busy at the moment, i rejected his call and message him at night.i asked why did he called me that day and he said that he just wanted to talk to me..again…things that he never did.

he said that he saw my pic that noon and realize that i’m pretty (WTH?? you just found it out??) but i’m a bit overreacting.

at first i’m not that annoyed and said that it was me and i’m happy with myself..and his reaction was “Whatever!!”

WTH?? why did he get mad? i’m the one who supposed to get annoyed..

but then my friend said…maa~ ika… just forget about it and i did it…

few days later, he called me in the morning.i’ve already forget about that incident, but still he brought the same topic. he wanted me to act calmer like other girls did (i’m sure about who did he meant about…100% sure) so that boys will be attracted to me.

at first i’m still ok with it..but then, his words started to annoyed me. he said that “don’t you want to be serious with a man?”

i was like “WTF???”

he said that most guy likes a calmer girl, that i was overreacting and many of my old friend who met me at the reunion agreed with him…

i was like “What do you know about me???”

and he said that his intuition would always right…

and then i WAS annoyed…

let me make things cleared….

he was my 6th grade elemantary school classmate.honestly, i don’t really remembered my elementary school moment (and that including him). then due to my parents, my junior high was really “plain”, thanks to them.i was only allowed to befriend with my classmate,except for one of my elementary school mate that my dad knows about.and i guess me and him in the same scholl but different class.no interaction at all definitely..

and my senior high…i love it…started to taste what we called freedom,and dating of course…different boys for each grade *grin* i do started to feel that the “real me” was out during senior high.live cheerfully and loudly… and at the third grade, i think that was the best part.i’ve made new friends..kind of gangs in a family like..we do even had a family tree and thanks to me for creating it…

me and him never met since senior high until i went to college.i was just met him last sept.due to my personal problem, i decided to went back home sooner.my old bestfriend asked me to go with her to some kind of reunion, from our elementary school. i was like “OK” since i got nothin’ to do and wanted to busy myself in order to distracted me from remembering my problem.

that’t where i met him..maybe i’m abit over reacting that night because i wanted to acted “fine”. i don’t want any of them to know my problem, but still i told him about it that night.after that, i just met him just few times.

what i’m trying to say is that i do realize that i’m a loud person…no maybe loud was not a right word…kind of…friendly with anyone i guess..same goes to my bestfriend.most of junior in my college knows me…and they get along so pretty well with me,boys and girls.

and if “something” didn’t happened that time, maybe  “something” will be happen this year or next year at least.my bestfriend knows about it..and iam pretty damn serious about “it”

so, how dare he said that to me?we were just met a couple of times and he said that he knows me well?that i should change my personality??

i guarantee, if i do that, many of my friend who knows me will get freak out…i’m 100% sure about that!!!

well, at least from this incident i learn about one thing.that there is still lots of people in this world who think that they really know about you,but in fact they know nothing about you!! still judging you from the looks, not by the heart…

hey man, have you ever heard about “DON’T JUDGE THE BOOK BY IT’S COVER??”

same goes to you~

and the one who knows you better is yourself and your soulmate,since your soulmate is half that you don’t…

Maa~

still from this incident,now i know who’s the one that i can call “friend”

and maybe….he’s not part of it…

to disappointed to be my friend…

sorry, man!!

that’s what you are to me…..

Love Sick

when i miss you, i close my eyes and i can see that person better
i try to forget and erase, but i get reminded of that person more
i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain….like this

i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..

breaking up is fast, but forgetting is hard
the love is painful, and i am hurt alone

did you have to leave that far away from me?
did you have to leave that far away from me?
i should’ve loved you with all my life, but you forgot me now like a heartless person
i should have loved you with my all, but now you live forgetting me

with all my life, the person that i love
that person only gave me tears and left
the tough love which i was hurt alone

the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this

——————-

Uwaaah~

A very touchy song…

my fave song for now…

let’s see…i’ve been playing it for hundred of times already in the last week

What can I say…

I’m in love with this song and the person himself *grin*

Hm….
dari judulnya aja dah taw kali ya…
kalo sebenernya lagi BT… no… MUAK dengan sesuatu.
Yah…mungkin dah pada taw kalo PER-SINETRONAN INDONESIA dah menunjukkan KUALITASNYA akhir-akhir ini dengan TERANG-TERANGAN MENJIPLAK FILM LUAR dan menambahkan embel-embel HANYA FIKTIF SEMATA, KESAMAAN HANYALAH KEBETULAN
F*CK WITH IT!!!!~
LO PIKIR KITA GA TAW????
LO PIKIR KITA GA PERNAH NONTON FILM YANG LO JIPLAK ITU???
DAN LO BILANG ITU HASIL KARYA LO????
FAKER LO!!!!
No…
I would rather say F*CKER LO!!!!!!!!!!!

Gw heran, knapa mreka ga bikin film yang baru aja?
Toh ga kalah kok mutunya ama film2 luar itu.
Sebut aja Laskar Pelangi yang baru-baru ini beredar.
Knapa mesti jiplak karya orang lain???
Lo pikir mreka ga kesian apa capek2 bikin trus lo main jiplak gitu aja?
Lo juga ga pake bilang versi aslinya apa.
LO PIKIR KITA BODOH?????

Mungkin smua pada bertanya-tanya, kok gw baru heboh soal ginian skarang.
NO…YOU’RE WRONG!!!!
Sjak awal gw dah MUAK sama kerjaan STASIUN TV YANG PAKE IKLAN BALON MERAH-BIRU itu…
Kalian sebut aja, Buku Harian Nayla yang ga mo disebut sbgi 1LOT Indonesia de-el-el yang ga perluu gw sebutin satu2 coz gw yakin KALIAN DAH PADA TAW APA AJA YANG DIJIPLAK~
En skarang???
SEKAR dari film KDrama GOLDEN BRIDE bo’!!!!!
How did I know???
For God’s sake!!!!
That’s what I’m watching when that DAMN TV showed about it!!!!
Gmana gw ga taw coba coz gw dah hapal jalan critanya…
Gw PUNYA DVDnya BEGO!!!
Nyari cewek buat dinikahin sama anaknya karena anaknya sakit gara2 ditingggalin mantannya yang super brengsek (yeah…just like YOU) bla bla bla…
Gw bahkan hapal dengan adegan yang ada mpe gw taw kalo ada adegan kasih jaket SAMA SEPERTI YANG LO TAYANGIN DI IKLAN ITU!!!!!!!!!
APA LO GA MALU???
GW YANG MALU KARENA ULAH LO!!!!!!!!!!
GW MALU KALO TERNYATA BANGSA GW YANG KATANYA TERCINTA INI ADALAH FAKER ALIAS PLAGIAT SEJATI!!!
Dan cuma ada satu sebutan untuk lo..

F*CKER!!!!!!!!!~

PS. This one doesn’t goes ou to the artists, but that DAMN F*CKER yang ga sadar kalo dia hanyalah ORANG BODOH YANG MAU CEPET KAYA DENGAN BIKIN FILM JIPLAKAN!!!
GO TO HELL!!!!

Where You Are

by Jessica Simpson

there are times i swear i know your here
when i forget about my fears
feeling you my dear, watching over me
my hopes seek what the future will bring
when you wrap me in your wings
and take me…

chorus:
where you are
where you and i will be together once again
we’ll be dancing in the moonlight just like we used to do
and you’ll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
when i can be, where you are

and i can see your face your kiss i still can taste
not a memory erased
oh how i see your star shining down on me
and i do anything
if i can just..be right there..

where you are
where you and i will be together once again
we’ll be dancing in the moonlight just like we used to do
and you’ll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
then i will be free
so take me where you are

now baby there are times when selfishly
im wishing that you were here with me
so i can wipe the tears from your eyes
and make you see
everynight while you are dreaming
im here to guard you from our fall

and anytime i feel alone
i close my eyes and dream of…

where you are
where you and i will be together once again
we’ll be dancing in the moonlight just like we used to do
and you’ll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
then i will be free

baby i still believe
oh i got to believe
i will touch you that sweet day
that you take me there
where you are
i still believe
oh i got to believe
i will touch you that sweet day

that you take me there
where you are
oh oh where you are
i still believe…fade
then i will be free
so take me where you are

—

Hehehe…

soooo~ sappy yah… XD

hm….

stelah skian lame menghilang dari dunia perFSan, akhirnya balik lagi

hehehehe

so many things happen in my life during this past 2-3 months…

and the biggest things was…”you know what”

so sad though, but yeah…life must go on, right?

anyway, “that thing” makes me thinking about, is there any life after death? I mean, not for him, but for me…

And some of my friends said, yes there is….

So, I’m trying to figure it out, my life after death…

Hehehehe

Btw, i like these next song.those lyrics kind of reflecting my feeling at that moment…

Hehehehe Just be a little bit sappy XD

First, song Blue by Arashi. basicallly, it was sung in Japanese, so i brought the translate here

Blue

The pale blue skirt trails over the hill at sunset
Thinking deeply, I wonder if this is what “forever” is?
“Love has to end someday,” you whisper from afar
Haven’t you noticed how I pretended to have not heard?

Since then, many seasons of petals have danced in the swirling wind
The memories that won’t change, no matter how much time passes, lie here

Longing to meet you
I try to hug you in my dreams
Chasing on
I wander around in this deep maze
Longing to see you
The you who’s not a dream but real
But unable to see you, unable to meet you
I drown myself in directionless memories

Shoulder to shoulder, we looked up, the night sky a planetarium
Those same stars may float somewhere now, but they’ll eventually disappear won’t they?
I’ve never been able to voice these thoughts that’s choking my heart
If only I could gently wrap them up, and let them out in sighs

Even as they sway and flow amid passing seasons
These memories can’t be resolved, they’re caught between the past and the future

Longing to meet you
I try to hug you in my dreams
It won’t go away
The vestiges of your scent still linger on
Longing to see you
The you who’s no dream but real
It hurts
As that pale blue blurs away

—

Pretty close to my story,huh?

Second, When You’re Gone by Avril Lavigne.I played this song for the entire 1st month…

When You’re Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I’ve never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can’t hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you’re gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

—

This one definitely talking about me during the past first month…DEFINITELY!!!

And the last one is Tanpa Kekasihku by Agnes Monica

Tanpa Kekasihku

Langit begitu kelam, hujan tak juga reda
Ku harus menyaksikan cintaku terenggut tak terselamatkan
Ingin kuulang lagi, ingin ku perbaiki
Kau sangat kubutuhkan, beraninya kau pergi dan tak kembali

Dimana surga itu?
Biar ku gantikan tempatku denganmu
Adakah tangga surga itu?
Biar ku temukan untuk bersamamu

Ku biarkan senyumku menari di udara
Biar semua tahu kematian tak mengakhiri cinta

Dimana surga itu?
Biar ku gantikan tempatku denganmu
Adakah tangga surga itu?
Biar ku temukan untuk bersamamu

Apalah artinya hidup tanpa kekasihku
Percuma ku ada disini

—

But yeah…I’m not going to do that anyway…hehehehe

And thank you for friends out there, for being there 4 me in my hardest time…

I do really appreciate that

And now I’m ready to continue my life